Adult Onset Asperger and momentary dementia
10-07-2024
I look back at the past 6 years of absolute chaos and think, wow, just completely demented.
It is all so weird and seemingly coming from nowhere, there is a sort of beauty in it though.
Now that I feel I am ideologically and worldly settling I look back sort of like a explorer surely looks through their journals.
Oh wow, what beautiful chaos, all the beautiful weird models, model after model, interesting but ultimately nonsense.
Just idea after idea only a truly unlocked mind could create.
Unintuitive step after step that only makes sense once you see the end product.
Like a trip to the new world without any plans on going back.
To boldly, or rather without choice, go into the great unknown, neurologically.
No regrets lol.
First Journal Entry
26-09-2024
What does a Journal Include?
A journal is not like a diary, entires are reflections and texts that can be, but must not be, related to the day they were written.
Smaller texts, reflections and thoughts about things in chronological order.
Why am I starting a journal?
I am starting a journal because I want a system that has:
* Chronological posting like twitter.
* Photos and illustrations like Instagram.
* Size of a html document.
* Informality of a journal.
All of these I get here!
Some thoughts and entires here will of course make it into other parts or even entirely own documents/books/works.
This is informal documentation of brain-scatter for me to look at when I want to take a step back and think about wtf I am doing.
I think it also can be fun for my followers to get a look inside my mind, which I think this best does.
Twitter posts are too contrained, Instagram as well, youtube takes too much dedication.
A journal is the perfect balance of everything.
Something that has been high up on my todo list is the website index overhaul.
At the moment it is just a list of links.
It needs to become more organized:
* All the social media links should get a top bar
* The front of the website should be relevant news + journal.
* A toggle switches between news view and apps/sections view.
There is a big, really big, chance that I will turn this into a diary since already I am using it more like a diary and less like a journal.
Journals are thoughtful sections of texts, this just meesy lines about my day.
Actually I have looked it up and and a diary is more of a raw log and a journal is more about reflections, interesting ideas and thoughts acquired during the day.
Journal it is!
I do not talk so much about what I did the day, but what I thought of that day.